Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Grateful Heart || My Momma Heart

Be warned.  This post is a rambling of my heart and thoughts right now.  It may not completely make sense to everyone.  Or anyone.  This one is mostly for me to just get my thoughts out there and if anyone has any amount of wisdom to bestow upon me, I'm ready.

I've always struggled with the idea of being a working mom.  Since both of my kids were 5 months old, I've worked.  Trust me, I've had times when I have wanted to stay home.  But, bills.  Since Steve is self-employed, I've been the one to carry the health benefits.  And I love providing for my family in this way.  But there have been times (and I hate to say it, but especially in the community of believers), I've felt judged for not staying home with my kids.  I see a lot of women in the church who are home with their kids, many of them homeschooling, and I sometimes get jealous.

But then I always think, if I could stay home, would I?  I absolutely love  that I get to teach part time this year, I'm just feeling so incredibly blessed. It's given me more time at home with my family and also more time to build a business that I'm passionate about.  Seriously, I've never felt this way about a job before.  And I've started to think, maybe this is it.  Maybe this is what I'm supposed to be doing. Working part time outside of the home, getting to be home more than half the time, and running a business from home.

And honestly, I'm trying not to over-think all of this. I so desire to be content with my life exactly how the Lord has it in this moment. And at the same time always asking for guidance and direction, never assuming that because it's what He has for me today, it's what He'll want for me next year, or even next month. I'm so grateful He knows my heart and it's deepest desires. And I love talking to Him about them. As the desires of my heart become more clear and my passions are discovered, I can't wait to see exactly how this all plays out in my life, either outside of the home, part time, or as my own boss. 

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Grateful Heart || New Mercies

How's your new year going?  Mine is going great, but I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with some life changes.  As many of you know, I am a school teacher, and this year, I was able to go back to the classroom part-time.  I spent the first part of the year up to Christmas break teaching our second language students in 4th-8th grade.  It was the perfect job...I loved it!! I could be creative and have fun doing extra things with the students, really honing in on their needs and meeting them where they're at.  It was such a small group of kids I was working with, I was really able to give a lot of them the one on one time that they needed.  

Just before Christmas break, my principal let me know of a need in 5th grade.  She needed a teacher there, and I was dreading talking to her about it.  I thought for sure she was going to ask me to go into that classroom full-time, which I knew would be so so hard.  Thank the Lord I was wrong.  She asked me to go to 5th grade and that I would still keep my 3 days per week schedule.  I've been paired up with another amazing teacher, and so far, we're the perfect team. :)

This week, my grateful heart is for:

+ my sweet class of students (I taught most of them at the beginning of their 4th grade year, before maternity leave)

+ my amazing partner teacher

+ my gracious principal, who's so understanding of my desires and dreams to be home with my kids more

I don't know why I ever question it, but God is so good.  His timing is always perfect.  His grace never runs out.  Although moving to 5th grade is going to require a lot more of my time, I know the Lord will honor me being back in the classroom and make a way for me to not give up any time with my family at home.  

This is the verse I've been clinging to lately:

Lamentations 3:22-24 (The Message)
God’s loyal love couldn’t have run out, his merciful love couldn’t have dried up. They’re created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I’m sticking with God (I say it over and over). He’s all I’ve got left.

A Grateful Heart with Ember Grey

Wednesday, January 6, 2016


One of my favorite things about each New Year...a word to live by.  A word that will help me focus on my goals and keep me striving to accomplish new things. A word that will keep me motivated and stretch me outside of my comfort zone.  

Part of the process that I love is the waiting.  The asking the Lord...What do You want me to strive for this year?  What should be my focus?...and then the hearing....brave....is that what I heard? Yes, you heard Me....Brave....I am calling you to live a BRAVE life.  One filled with hope and adventure. One filled with intention and expectancy.  One filled with ME.  Emptying yourself of you and filling all the places with Me alone.

And so my word...BRAVE.

I'm not completely sure what that looks like.  But I guess that's me having to already show I can do this....not knowing what to expect and yet go forward in expectancy.  That's so not an easy thing for me to do.

I also need to figure out how to get out of my own way.  So often, I am what is holding me back!  If I could just get out of my way, I'd give myself so many more opportunities to be brave. I tend to hide behind fear and use my introvertedness as an excuse not to do new things.  Guys, I can't do that, remember I'm introverted!!  Introverted doesn't have to mean scared and awkward.  I know there are so many amazing opportunities I've missed out on because I haven't just sucked it up and gotten out of my own way.  I don't want to live like that anymore.

This year I'm going to work on breaking free from myself.  I made a list of goals for the year and it's funny.. or GOD...most of them will require me to get out of my own way...step out in faith, away from fear...and live a brave life.  I know the Lord is going to call me to hard things this year.  He already is.  I hope and pray I will glorify Him with my brave life, because I can't wait to see what this year holds.  

Monday, January 4, 2016

Grateful Heart || Reflecting on 2015

I know everyone has been saying this, BUT...I really can't believe it's 2016! My Gramma was right, the older I get, the faster time flies by.  How does that even happen?!? I've been doing a lot of reflecting these last few weeks....remembering, looking through all my photos of the last year, reading blog posts (even though they were few) of all the things we went through in 2015.  And I just keep seeing a common thread...God is so good.  Cliche', right? Maybe.  But it's so true.  I see His goodness throughout 2015.  Even in the hard times.  Especially in the hard times.  He really showed up, bigger and greater than we could've ever asked or imagined.  

2015 was the year of GIVING for me.  I learned so much through my journey of learning how to be a better giver.  The Lord has given me a new word for 2016.  I'll be sharing about it tomorrow.  ;)  I love spending time at the end of each year reflecting, and asking God for a new word to live by for the new upcoming year.  Doing this gives me a focus, helps me to set some goals and gives me a vision for the year.  The word usually has something to do with an area of weakness for me, so it definitely stretches and grows me.  I love that.

I'm really looking forward to all the things of 2016.  I'm so incredibly grateful for 2015...it was an amazing adventure.  But I'm ready for more...bring it 2016!

A Grateful Heart with Ember Grey

Thursday, December 31, 2015

30 Ways to Use Essential Oils || Day 4

In November, I posted on my oily instagram account different ways I use my oils each day. This is the final post of four posts.  If you have any questions about oils or our natural wellness journey, please email me....amykcaudill@gmail.com.  You can read my first 3 posts here, here, and here.  

28. guilty pleasure (above) ||  One of my favorite things to do at night is get the kids to bed as quickly as possible, then snuggle up on my bed with with a book and peace & calming and dream catcher in my diffuser. Reading helps me relax and unwind from my day and I always feel so rested in the mornings. I love this nighttime combo.

29. quiet ||  As I get older, my introverted tendencies get stronger. I'm realizing how important it is for me to have some sort of quiet in each of my days. Whether it's running errands alone, sitting in a coffee shop with a book, walking on the beach, or reading at home while the babe is napping, I need and crave time alone without having to talk. These 4 oils are some of my favorites to wear when I'm in my quiet zone. Either a drop on my wrists, or behind my ears, the affects are just what I need during those times.

30. wish list ||  This morning I had these 3 diffusing....they're the perfect trio....while making my oily Christmas list [for the hubs]. 

Disclaimer:  My words are not intended to diagnose, treat or cure any disease or health ailment. Please do your research and make informed decisions when it comes to you and your family’s health. I am not a doctor and am only sharing what has worked with my family.  Results may differ for each person. Thank you!