Friday, March 14, 2014

my struggle

One of my biggest struggles in life is balance.  As a full-time working wife & momma, I'm always struggling between between working too much and not focusing on my family enough.  Or focusing on my daughter and not spending enough quality time with my husband.  Or spending time with Steve & neglecting the pile of papers that need to be graded.  It's a balancing act that I often feel I can't survive.

I love that I get to teach full-time in a classroom.  It's totally my ministry.  But that makes it hard to leave it in the classroom.  There is always ALWAYS something that needs my attention when it comes to school.  And I struggle.  How much do I bring home? What can I push off til the next day when I'm back in the classroom?

It's the same at home.  What laundry HAS to get done now?  What does Claire need to be prepared for school tomorrow...not the whole week, just tomorrow.  What can sit and wait for the weekend and what do I need to do this morning? This evening when I get home from school?

I tend to be a fairly organized person, but I have to be intentional in my organization.  If I'm not intentional about it, then I still know all the things I need to get done, it just happens when I'm rushing, then I forget, then I'm mad, and usually take it out on someone who doesn't deserve it!

I know this is a no brainer, but I started making lists...like real lists...intentional lists...of the things I wanted to accomplish each month.  Not just things to get done, but things I need to do for myself so I can be better for my family.  I'm finding myself relying on the lists more and more, which feels good.  At the end of each day, I'm able to look back and see what I was able to get done and know how to plan better for the next day.

Balance is still a difficult thing for me, I think it always will be.  But I'm striving to be more intentional and it feels good.  I'm sure I will always have to give myself grace in this area.  I'm never going to be perfect at all these things, but I can do my job as wife and momma well, and that's my heart's desire.

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1 comment:

Susannah said...

I pray that the Lord gives you peace and that you don't feel like you have to do it all or that you're failing! Balance is HARD but by God's grace we can find it. :-) Thanks for linking this up with the Faith and Fellowship blog hop! :-)