Sunday, August 31, 2014

grateful heart

Today I'm so grateful for life.  This year has been a reminder of how precious life is, that we really can't control how long it lasts, and that it is a sacred gift.

In January, we almost lost my aunt in a snowboarding accident.  The crazy thing is, she's not the person you expect to get a call like that about.  She's strong, level-headed, likes adventure, but is always thinking about safety.  But I'll never forget my Gram's voice on the phone....she's been in a serious accident...the hospital called...she's in critical condition...please pray....were her words spoken through tears.  Immediately, we all began to pray.  Mom, her big brother, and sister-in-law left immediately for the hospital in Reno.  And we waited.  And prayed.  Our family came together to pray, support, and encourage.  It has been several months of recovery, but I got to see my aunt on Saturday, and she is doing so well.  She still has a long way to go, and there will always be deficits, but she is ALIVE!  And is able to live a full life.

In May, we lost my Grams to a long battle of liver disease.  She was the rock of our family.  The one who made family a priority.  She got us together to celebrate everything.  In fact, I was just thinking that this is one of the first and few of Labor Days that I'm not at Grams house for a family BBQ.  I still think of her everyday.  And my heart still hurts to lose someone so impactful and important in my life.  But I'm so grateful for her life and the way she loved and served Jesus.  She truly reflected him in how she lived each day of her life.  And I'm so grateful that I was able to be 1 of 5 who was able to call her Gramma.  My life will never be the same because of her being in it.


Another life I'm grateful for is the tiny one growing inside of me.  I feel "it" kicking and twirling as I type.  And I am overwhelmed with gratitude.  This little life has been prayed for for about 5 years now.  We waited and begged God for this life.  And just when we changed our plans, He made His Plans known to us.  They were not what we thought we wanted at the time, but His Ways are perfect and I'm overwhelmed with gratitude.  It still doesn't feel completely real, like sometimes I still feel like my heart hasn't completely accepted it yet.  After waiting so many years, I still feel like I can't get my hopes up because I don't want to be disappointed.  But then...kick....flutter....twist....all gentle reminders of His faithfulness, perfect timing, and attention to every last detail of our lives.  I'm overwhelmed with gratefulness.



Ember Grey

31 comments:

Anne @ Love the Here and Now said...

When you we break down all of our gratitude, family is always at the root. Where would we be without them by our side? I am so happy to hear that your aunt is doing well. I'm sorry about your Gram. From the looks of it she had a large family, a beautiful one at that, and I'm sure she was constantly surrounded by love!

ashley said...

Minis sure are a blessing! <3

Kendra Loisel said...

This is precious. A little life inside of you. Family is the root of us all. We are nothing without them. Everyday I am grateful for all that they have done and will do. Loved this post.

Ember Grey. said...

Wow, I did not know that about your aunt! Praise the Lord she is still with you all, and that you got to spend that precious time with her on Saturday! My goodness- May will always be such a hard time and I actually think of you & your Gram often when I think about my Grandpa - we both shared such a great loss in that time but you gave me so much comfort via email in that time too.


PRAISE for new life :) I'm so happy & excited for your little family, Amy!!

TheAdventuresofBugandBoo said...

The loss of a loved one, especially such an integral part of a family, is just so deeply felt. But we know how much of an impact they had on our lives because of how often we think of them after they're gone, and the wonderful thoughts they bring to mind. I'm so sorry you lost your Gram, Amy, but I'm overjoyed for you that your Aunt is still with you - and that your beautiful prayed-for baby is growing inside you, waiting to meet you all!!

Ashley LaMar said...

The loss of a loved one can be so very hard. Our family is enduring this same grief right now and it's especially hard when you are watching them just slowly drift away. It's painful but there is a comfort in knowing that they share my faith and will be happily accepted into Heaven once their souls arrive.


Congratulations on your little one! I am sure you are excited. <3

Tami said...

Loved reading your post. Family is everything to me and I'm also grateful to have people in my life I can call on anytime. Congrats to you and your little one. :)

amy said...

I know...it's so bittersweet that their deaths are what drew us to each other. Yes, it's definitely been a rough year, but God has been in every.single,detail. It's been beautiful to watch. And yay for baby! Judy can't get here quick enough!

amy said...

I love how you said it...we know how much of an impact they had on our lives because of how often we think of them after they're gone...SO TRUE! And that makes me even more grateful!

amy said...

Thanks Tami...yes, we are truly blessed with family.

amy said...

Oh Ashley...I'm so sorry for you and your family. It's SO hard. But there is hope in Heaven. I will definitely be praying for you.

rhonda said...

Love love love reading your posts!!! Thank you for sharing with us. Such an encouragement of how our Savior takes care of us and how everything is in His time.

Ashley LaMar said...

Thank you. You are very kind.

amy said...

Thanks Rhonda!! I love that you read my posts, it means a lot!! :)

Rachel G said...

Life is such a beautiful and precious gift. Sounds like your Grandmother left an awesome legacy behind her. :)

amy said...

Life really is such a treasure, and there's not a day that goes by that I don't take it for granted! Thanks for stopping by to read. I hope you have a lovely weekend!

amy said...

Just wanted you to know you've been on my heart all week. Still praying.

Ashley LaMar said...

Thank you Amy, you're a doll. I actually lost my job yesterday (laying off staff) so now I'm unemployed as well. :,( Really...really rough times.

amy said...

:( I'm so sorry. I saw your post on the Peony Project last night, so I knew something was going on...just made me pray harder. It's nice that it's the weekend. Hope it's a time of refreshment for you.

Carolyn said...

Congratulations on your miracle, and what a blessing to see both life sustained and a powerful life lived. It is so great to reflect on our blessings. Thanks for sharing!

amy said...

Thank you Carolyn! I'm so glad you stopped by to read. :) Hope you're having a wonderful weekend!

Susannah said...

Congratulations on your precious little one! It's so cool that he/she has such a wonderful legacy of women (and I'd assume men too) in your family to model himself/herself after! Thanks for linking up with the Faith and Fellowship blog hop!

Jessica Slaughter said...

Congratulations!! That's so awesome that you're grateful for the way God has planned your life. Coming from the Peony Project! (:

Ashley LaMar said...

Amazingly...today I received an e-mail from a woman I worked with a few years ago (she was a vendor we hired for a job) and she said that we now live in the same city and she is well-acquainted with the director of a company that does the exact same work as the company I was just laid off from. She forwarded him my resume and a personal recommendation this evening. Now, just praying that turns into something! Thank you so much for the prayers! God is good. :-)

Faith Golden said...

Awe! Congratulations on the little one! Children are definitely gifts from God! Treasure that gift always. :) family get-togethers are huge in my family too! :) coming over from the peony project. :)

amy said...

Thank you! Yes, we have a great legacy of men, as well. So very thankful for that!!

amy said...

Don;t you love the Peony Project?? I've met so many fabulous ladies there! SO great! And thank you!!

amy said...

Yes, such a treasure! We are so grateful! And don;t you love the Peony Project? So many great ladies there, I love it!! :) I feel like it's a little glimpse into what heaven will be like.

amy said...

Praise Jesus!! That is awesome! Thank you for sharing...such a great way to start my day! :)

Faith Golden said...

Yes!! I love the peony project..it's been so exciting to see it grow! Yay!

Susannah said...

That really is so amazing!