Tuesday, October 7, 2014

motherhood.

the day I became a momma
Motherhood.  It's the hardest and greatest thing I've ever done.  If you're a momma, you know exactly what I mean.

I'm so grateful for every part of motherhood...the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Trust me...there's a lot of ugly.  Sometimes too much.  I'm grateful for new mercies every morning and that my 6 year old has never held my "ugly" against me.

Dawson & Claire born 3 weeks apart are the best cousin-friends!
So today I'm linking up with Ashley from That Southern Mama to bring you The Happiest and Crappiest of Motherhood.  Let's get the crappiest over with...

Sleepless nights, tantrums in the middle of Target, not wanting to brush teeth, slamming doors in anger, telling someone the food they've made is gross.  Yes, my adorable 6 year old is guilty of all these things.

There are also the times when you can't protect your child from the ugly of this world, from a hurtful comment from another child, from feeling left out.  Or the times when they want to give up because something new feels hard, and you would do anything to just trade places with them, but you know you can't because what would they learn from that?


And even though they're hard things to deal with, it's part of growing up.  And it's my opportunity to invest in her heart.  Even when I don't want to.  Especially when I don't want to.  Those are hard times as a momma.  They're exhausting.  You feel like, "What have I gotten myself into?!?  Can I just be done??"

And then there's the moments where they say, "I love you," for no reason.  And that's such a gift.  To be loved for no particular reason.  And when you see your child doing the things you've been teaching and training them to do...like, when they do it without prompting...oh it makes my heart explode with pride.  And when they make good choices in friendships, when they choose to act with integrity and character, when they ask the hard questions and learn from it.  Those are the things that remind me why I'm doing this seemingly impossible job.  And it renews my strength for the challenging days ahead.


Being a mom is the hardest thing I've ever done.  But it's all been so worth it.  Are there things I wish I would have done differently?  Absolutely.  Are there words I've said that I would pay a million dollars to take back?  Of course.  And that's where grace comes in.  I'm going to make mistakes.  Say things I shouldn't.  Lose my patience.  Because I'm not perfect.  Even though I want to be perfect for Claire and our soon-to-be-born babe.  But all is grace.  And in my worst moments as a mom, His grace is abundant.  And that Grace is what carries me through the happiest and crappiest of days.

37 comments:

Rachel Kahindi said...

I concur! Hard, but so worth it.

Melissa Camacho said...

totally agree with this. being a mom is such hard work, but it's so incredibly worth it. I'd say you're doing a great job, sweetie. Claire is absolutely beautiful (just like her mom!).

ashley said...

Tantrums at target continue past age 2?! I must go cry now! haha! Me & Kenz both seem to like to throw our tantrums at target, usually together! :P Amazing things require hard work, MOTHERHOOD! Love ya mama!

socalledhomemaker said...

Great post! So heartfelt. Thanks for linking up to Mamas Tell All!

Mary said...

I'm not a mom but this made my baby fever spike! so sweet! I can;t want to be a mom and your daughter is beautiful! thank you for sharing!

Andrea || Mitchael Journey said...

Precious precious <3 I love the line ,"it renews my strength for the challenging days ahead". So true! tantrums are relatively newish to us -- but it can be so hard to know how to handle the situation, especially in public! Grace grace grace! Thank you for linking up! I just added my post in too! Here it is if you get the chance to stop by :) http://bit.ly/1oQSOk6

Amy @ Set Free said...

Yes!! So worth it! And it;s funny how the really good things stand out more than the hard ones.

Amy @ Set Free said...

Ahhh...thanks girl! Sweet of you to say!!

Amy @ Set Free said...

Oh no...that happened when she was two...in the check out line at what felt like the busiest Target in the world. I was helping my sis move so we each had two carts FULL of stuff and Claire just laid down at the checkout screaming and yelling about lord knows what. Usually I can ignore the stares from people, but I literally wanted to die.

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thank you!! It's a fun link-up!!

Amy @ Set Free said...

Oh you're so sweet!! Being a mom is really the greatest gift! Nothing like it! :) You're so passionate about it now, you'll be a fabulous mommy someday!

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thank you for your encouraging words!! I absolutely love my job as momma...it's the greatest gift! But so hard sometimes!!

Mary said...

oh thank you! I sure hope so! :) I found your blog through a link up but I have been clicking around :)

Whitney said...

Great post, we are definitely not going to be perfect moms, but His grace is sufficient!

Anne @ Love the Here and Now said...

Love this! I love hearing other moms keeping it real when it comes to motherhood...it's the best thing ever yes; but there are some tough times too! Thanks for sharing!

Amy @ Set Free said...

The only way we can get through each day...right?!? I'd be a mess without His grace!!

Amy @ Set Free said...

It would be hard to keep on as a mom if we didn't have the opportunity to hear from other moms...that's where I find my encouragement, knowing I'm not alone in this hard, but ever so rewarding journey!

ashley said...

oh gosh! I hate target tantrums. Kenz doesnt really do those anywhere else. weird. I am sure some mamas understand though!

Meagan said...

Ohhh the ugly. It's hard to not let that ruin your day! And hearing "I love you" for no reason is amazing. Who knew motherhood would be full of so many ups and downs?!

Ember Grey. said...

awww haha! I often tell MYSELF that the food I made is gross, so I can only imagine what a 6 year old would have to say about it. Gosh, you are a good mom, Amy. God is OH so good.

Sarah @ 12 Twenty Seven said...

Your little one is SO adorable! That last picture of you two? Precious! I worked in a daycare for a year and I saw all kinds of happy and crappy! But, I can't imagine what it's like as a mom! God gets us through everything and we should take so much comfort in that!

Amy @ Set Free said...

I know...the ugly is so hard! Fortunately those days are few and far between...I'm so thankful!!

Amy @ Set Free said...

hahaha...I know, my cooking is pretty nasty! But she says it to other people, which is horrifying! Kids really know how to keep you humble!! :)

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thank you!! Yes, other people's kids can be super crappy! Haha....being a mom is so different though...you'll love it! :)

Rhonda said...

Thank you thank you thank you Amy. Had a rough night and needed to hear these encouraging words. Still waiting for my youngest Savannah to say the "I love you" bit, definitely would be helpful:)

Kendra Loisel said...

This is precious. You and your daughter are so cute together, you'll look back on these pictures one day and they will be prized possessions. All those trouble times just make the good times more worth it. You're an awesome mother, your kids are and will continuously be blessed.

Amy @ Set Free said...

Oh I can't wait to see who your sweet little Savannah grows up to be! Someone great for sure. Praying she uses her fierceness to bring glory to Jesus! :)

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thanks Fawn!

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thank you! And yes...I already look back and laugh at so much of it. Thankful for grace and laughter!! :) Thank you for your sweet words!

Cassie Lee said...

SO many tears. Your daughter is so lucky to have a mom like you. I can't imagine how hard it is, but it's got to be the best job around :)

Amy @ Set Free said...

Ahhh...you're too kind. It is so hard, but the rewards are greater than anything I've ever experienced. And...you'll be an incredible mom someday!

Daisy @ Simplicity Relished said...

I love this, Amy. Your musings on motherhood are so encouraging, and those photos are beautiful!! What a wonderful journey you're on :)

Amy @ Set Free said...

Thank you!! It's the hardest journey, but I love it! :)

Rachel Stokes said...

What a beautiful little girl you have! I can relate in so many ways, even though my baby girl is only 7months old. Motherhood is so worth it!

Alexandra said...

I don't have children yet, and may not for a long time, so a lot of this is hard for me to understand. However, when I DO have children, I hope that I am as graceful about it as you are.

Brooke said...

I so agree with this!!!! Thank you for sharing. I think the more of us mamas who put the "crappy" out there and celebrate the "happy" with each other, the better off we all will be!!

Jenny said...

Great post. I read once the days are long but the years are short. I'm not sure who said it, but I would guess a mother in the throws of raising children!