Monday, October 26, 2015

Grateful Heart || Weekending

This weekend was full. A hectic schedule of two parents working, trying to figure out the kid's schedule and sitters. An amazing conference full of learning and growing. A pumpkin patch full of people, but still full of fun. A night out with friends full of laughter and drinks. I'm starting my week out tired, but expectant. My coffee will be a little stronger this morning, but I'm ready to face the week. My brain is overflowing with new information learned, but I've already stocked up on books so I can keep learning more.  We have this week off from school, but our schedule is filling fast.  Which I love, but hate.....

The danger with living in a constant state of fullness is when we're no longer doing for others but for ourselves. When our response is, "I'm so full, I'm sure whatever I'm doing is more than whatever you're doing to make you full." Our motives are out of place when the things that are so life giving become life taking.   For me, the busier I get, the more I struggle with anxiety. It completely cripples me. And then I become me focused instead of others focused. At that point I can have a completely full schedule, but a heart that is quickly headed toward empty. 

For me, when life gets full, I have to constantly remind myself that's it's about others. In those times, it's also so important for me to focus on self-care, which I realize seems to totally contradict the part I just said about others! But I have to be healthy in order to keep those I love healthy. And I also have to remind myself to say no....which has given me so much freedom.  So right now, I'm grateful that I at a place where I'm doing this well. It won't always be like this, but for now things are full and healthy.   I'm so grateful for that. For the things that are making my heart and life so full right now. So full, I'm finding it hard to find time to write. :( But it's good knowing I'm right where I'm supposed to be.  And that is always the best place to be. 

Grateful Heart w/ Ember Grey

4 comments:

Christine Everyday said...

Love this! Life being full is a good thing, even if it does mean it's hard to find time to write...I know that feeling well right now!

Michelle said...

I visit an assisted living home regularly and when I walk through those hallways and see many elderly sitting alone in their chairs, I think to myself, they had full days filled with busyness and people wh depended on them. Now, they sit and stare, alone. It is always a wake up call for me on those days I feel like I can't give one more thing to another. Being grateful for the crazy right now in our lives is a very good thing. From Ember Grey today.

Amy @ Set Free said...

Well life has just been so full I'm finally getting around to replying to you!! Thanks for your words. It's always nice to connect with other full time working mommas out there who just GET IT! :)

Amy @ Set Free said...

Oh wow...your words are so true! I hope I'm not that person someday, but that I will be able to enjoy the fullness of life until my last breath. And thank you for taking time of your day to visit assisted living homes. What a joy you must be to people who feel "trapped" and crave to have interactions with younger, loving people. You are a tremendous example.